Friday, August 8, 2008

i've been reprimanded

wonderful Janie has demanded an update WITH a pregnancy picture. Sorry but this is the best I got.

I have to tell ya, it's been a long week. Without boring the crap out of you: I knew we were going to be slow at work this week with school starting and that my staff was more than capable of managing without me. Being that we, the nation, seem to be having a little economic sputter (we are all broke) I figured what a good chance to be out of work so that I can get right back in there and start paying some late bills here in a few weeks.

so last week I started on the path to "how to induce labor naturally" - this last week+ has included everything off the standard lists and things that have been recommended by friends, family and the nice lady at the photo counter at Costco. (*note- I did not try castor oil, I'm too afraid)

I am exhausted, my feet (which are not happy about the amount of weight gained in the last 9 months) hurt so bad from speed walking and stairs, my back and hips are sick to death of the enormous exercise ball that I live on now,

bounce, bounce, rock, roll, bounce (you get the idea)


my husband is exhausted since I just expect him to be more than a piece of meat... I think the word I used was "machine", did I mention an enema... ya tried that too (not my fav!)

anyway, here I sit pregnant and frustrated. actually I think I'm going over to the depressed side. I know I know, it's not even my due date, but:
  1. I have no patience whatsoever!
  2. I'm dying to meet this child who I love and I hope will love me as much.
  3. I've had contractions for 3 months and they are much harder and often now... but they aren't even real ones.
  4. Jocie also thinks she has a baby Harrison in her tummy, and it would be nice to show the child what we have been working so hard for (she always shows me that "Harrison is kicking")
  5. there is definitely money motivation, I've got to get back to work ASAP!
  6. did I mention my lack of patience???

Anyway, you could imagine (or maybe you can't) the competitive chill that literally went through my veins and took over my body when my Doula (my sister Megan) called to say that she and my sister Rhonda (who's due date is one day before mine) are on the way to the hospital in hard labor.

WAIT, WE WERE SUPPOSED TO DO THIS TOGETHER!

Yesterday afternoon, Rhonda had a beautiful baby girl Charley (named after my dad). We visited them at the hospital. I was so happy to welcome this gorgeous child into the world, and so let down that I had been left behind.

I came home and took a nap and worked several more hours on Breaking Dawn (3/4 way through) and decided that I've got to let some of this angst go.

Although I haven't gone to work in a few days (hey they didn't need me, so I bounced-literally) I am on my way there this morning. I will carry on as normal and try with all my might to pretend I don't care.

I don't care (yes I do), no I don't (yes I do). damn.

I'll keep trying to relax....

however God in case it matters... today 8-8-08 would be a REALLY COOL birthday. Just saying, I'm not telling you what to do!

10 comments:

WendyB said...

Aw, congrats to your sis. Now get to work.

Aprilyn said...

Will your doc induce you if you beg and plead?! I wish I knew what to tell you. Someone told me boys tend to be late. I wouldn't know since my 1st was 2 wks early and my 2nd was 7 weeks early. I hope the next post will be a happy Mary Poppins holding that darling Harrison. Ok, so I'm also hoping that post is REALLY REALLY soon!

Andrea said...

That's wonderful that Rhonda had her baby! Your day will be here before you know it. Just blink and he'll be 16. On second thought, I'm convinced you should forbid him to come out and ever grow up.

Hang in there. :0)

Suzel said...

Everytime I see a new post I'm hoping it's you announcing the baby is here. Stop disappointing me all the time.

Janie said...

Muchos gracias senorita!!!
I have fingers crossed for you today 8/8/08 would ROCK

Becky said...

Congrats on your new niece! And... I'm hopeful for you that baby Harrison gets here SOON!

Oh, and for the record, I would totally fear castor oil too. Blech. I find it repulsive enough that people expect me to rub it on my c-section scar. Um, yeah, no thanks.

Becky said...

Oh yeah, forgot to mention... So totally unfair that your sis is so gorgeous that soon after giving birth. Grrr. :)

Sarah said...

hang in there girl, it will come sooner than later :D

p.s. did you have jocie take that pic????

p.p.s. i would love to mail you a gift for the little man-- email me if you wouldn't think that was too weird :D

ragersarah(at)gmail(dot)com

Janie said...

hey I just read and noticed that you tried the enema route - can I say that's hysterical. I had to use so many of those damn things at the beginning when I was so sick and the anti-nausea medicine meant I didn't poop for two straight weeks! I am so sorry girl I hope you are at the hospital now - or in your birthing tub in the master bedroom depending on your level of granola-ness.

the princess said...

so you're really impatient then? bwah ha ha!

no really though, i hope you have your sweet bundle very very soon. i know how uncomfortable that last bit can be. thinking of you.