please cease reading and breathing.
please just turn back now.
I'm begging you - you don't know what you are doing to me.
I can't handle how this is going to end.
PLEASE DON'T DO IT!!!
you know who I'm talking to.
If you turn 18 tomorrow, I will hold my breath and die.
Please stop aging, it is aging ME!!!
WHY do you have to grow up???
If you were bit by a vampire (i know of a nice family) then you would have to stay 17 FOREVER!
I just can't bear the monstrous feelings of ...... I don't know what, but they are monstrous.
Maybe I'm looking at this all wrong.??
Maybe it's not ABOUT ME???
But then WHY do I feel like a monstrous sob is sneaking out?
Perhaps I should just do as you do one one's birthday and say happy birthday. ???
I guess I could.
What would it change? Nothing, he's not going to stay 17 just because I don't want to acknowledge his birthday.
Ok, I can do it. I can be supportive.
Here it goes.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my FAVORITE BABY BROTHER who also is now technically an ADULT. I love you little bro!